TW: drugs, self harm, suicide
ARCHIVE 04.29.2010
I'm afraid my moods have become so unpredictable that I myself cannot foretell what I will do next. I'm afraid I'll be a person of whom it is said, "She is a harm to herself and others." I don't believe I've ever been as lost about myself as I am right now. I need to find my way back. I have to.
Gotta get lost to find your way/
I need to escape my habits of self-destructive escapism to find something of value to live for. I'm fucked up and I've fucked up, I know this. There is a war within me I can no longer keep.
POSTFACE 06.17.2022
I predicted my unpredictability correctly — it was a bleak afternoon, May 2010, my
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